As I mentioned in a previous post, the launch of international calling has opened the floodgates to our site and we have been working at full capacity to fight off the china-clones, keep our users happy, and maintain the mantra of enjoyable free calling. I knew the day would come when Butterfinger could no longer carry 90% of the weight of the company on his shoulders, I just thought it would be at a time when we were closer to being able to comfortably cover the calls while generating some income to stash under the bed. But as my life likes to prove to me on a daily basis, things often do not work out as planned, and I need to lose the training wheels and take off down the street.
So at this point, what’s done is done, and although I have not yet received it, I am fearfully expecting a call to tell me that I am being let go. I have never been fired from a job, but there is always a first for everything, and getting the boot when you are trying to be honest and do what you can to make it a decent, civil process for both parties involved is apparently no exception to the rule. Good thing is, anger and betrayal are excellent emotions to have on your side when trying to create a situation for yourself that will let you have the ability to answer to no one and write your own rules. It also makes it a lot easier to press on, and not wallow in a puddle of regret and guilt, when you get reassurance from those you feared you were screwing over so bad by leaving that they are behind you 100% and would do the same thing if they were in your shoes.
I am not going to write a whole good-bye soliloquy for the people I am going to miss seeing every day, because this, of course, is not even close to the last you have seen of me. Plus, I hate saying things like “good-bye” with such finality. I know this is what I need to be doing right now; I do not want to be at a back-to-school night 15 years from now with regrets about my life and present situation. I know this is going to be hard, and I know there is a chance it may not work, but I really think its time I start taking some chances.
The way I see it right now, the worst that can happen is that I end up having to find a new job and have no money in the bank when I start school… Much worse things have happened and I am definitely not going down like that without a fight. Confidence is key.